This is what I tell myself.
Really what I have or am having is....
A BREAKDOWN!!
Total and Complete Emotional Breakdown.
Seriously.
If you happened to see me Sunday
3rd or 4th bench back from the front
-So really how could you miss me-
You probably noticed me sobbing my eyes out.
I know this isn't completely irregular
Since I have been known to shed a tear or two
especially on fast Sunday.
But then as I exit the building
mid testimony meeting
with a son who is obviously grimacing in pain....
Well I guess that tells the whole story.
I think the stress of having my wonderful loving son
feel sick, look too skinny and pale all the time
is taking it's toll.
I'm waiting for those blessings I have total faith in..
to come.
Really, I am waiting patiently.
But in the meantime....
I'll get it together, it was just a bad few days.
So if you were one of those who witnessed this breakdown
I am okay.
Just don't offer sympathy, hugs, or compassion...
Or I just might break down right in front of you. :)
Thankfully my wonderful husband took me on a much needed
date today.
A wonderful walking tour of the Thanksgiving Points garden.
A quiet sit in the secret garden.
And lunch at Chili's.
I feel better already.
Add in 3 days at girls camp later this week and
I should be good to go for a little longer....
While I continue to wait...patiently.
So when the children ask..Mom you okay?
I till tell them,
Yes, I just have Issues. :)
4 comments:
I'm so sorry! Keep that faith, the blessings will come. Sometimes they come in ways we don't see until later, but they always come.
My kids know just to not ask if I'm okay when I start crying. They know it just makes me cry more. So apparently I have issues too.
It's okay to have issues! I have issues and I don't have a sick child. That is so hard to deal with.
It's hard for any parent to watch their child suffer; especially when you are on the Lord's time and can't see the end. So when it comes to our kids we all have issues! And BTW you are entitled (and expected) to lose it sometimes; you've had a rough haul. Hang in there!!
Thats my new phrase, I have issues. It isn't even lying! Hang in there. You are in my prayers.
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